Faces

Photos from our Skype session!

it's a dreary day and all I am, is stuck inside my head. Blackbird plays in the background, soft, tender, illuminating.

There's an antsyness in my heart, a slight ache, a throbbing wonder. the days are speeding past, rushing from moment to moment that fades too fast. I wish I could hold on to these moments just a little more, make the music last, make the laughter linger. I wish I could bottle these experiences, to dust them off and relive them at whim. What I wouldnt give, to have enough time to take it all in, to take a snapshot of time, to freeze, to immortalise, to live.

someone, take me out of my head, please.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night, 
take these sunken eyes and learn to see.

New Haven in the wee hours of the morning. I wanna go up again. 

School has barely started and it has been crazy. Trying to decide what classes to take, trying to decide which activities to get involved in, I can't help but feel like I'm being pulled in a million directions at once. Dont get me wrong, I love it here and I love the fact that they just about have everything under the sun, but sometimes I get so tired of trying to decide what to do and trying to figure out what's best for me. I wish I had a roadmap to A BRIGHT FUTURE or to AWESOME HUMAN BEING, something that charts the road to DESIRED STATE all planned out nicely, with landmarks and precise directions every step of the way.

Right now I just feel like I want to do this and that and like a gazillion other things. And I whine in despair, why do we ONLY have 24 hours in a day? Why do we need sleep, and rest and all these other unproductive things? Why do we have to be human?