This is what vulnerability feels like-  heart in my hands, lump in my throat. Stomach churning, breath quickening.

There's a slightly sick feeling in my gut. and a slightly panicked sensation in my head.

Somewhere, some part of my consciousness screams "why the hell did you do this"

but after the initial anticipation of pain (which is a distinct pain of its own), the waves of emotions settle.

Leaving behind the serenity and calm of the vast ocean shore.